Numb
Today wasn't the best day. Everyday is a struggle with my depression, but today was especially hard.
Numb
Today was a bad day.
I did everything a "regular" person would do.
I went outside,
I spent time with family and loved ones.
I smiled.
I ate.
I did homework.
But I still felt numb.
So I did what anyone would do.
I went to the liquor cabinet and grabbed some of the alcohol.
I drank that until my body shut me down.
Why?
Why do I do this to myself?
Why do I feel the need to make myself feel?
Why do I always just feel numb?
age 21
